Accidental Hiatus

Just in case you guys were wondering where the hell I’ve been…


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Anchor My Heart To Yours (asks)

elunica-calemi: With regards to AMHTY, being paralleled to Paily canon, I have this primary concern about Paige’s storyline. I don’t know if it’s just me, but I do get that underlying tone and well, impression that Paige’s growth and character development relies heavily on her interactions and encounters with Emily. I can see how she’s inspired by the girl who captured her heart into wanting to change, to become a better person. My little dilemma here is, this “dependency” on Emily somehow jeopardizes my ideal vision of Paige wanting to change to become a better person more for herself than for any girl/Emily, she deems the need to change to be deserving for. As you said, “the kind that can keep a girl like her.” How would you weigh on this one, my friend? Are you getting what I’m saying…or probably not? What and how would Paige inspire Emily to do or change into becoming a better person? To keep a girl like Paige? I think that is what’s lacking in PLL canon and in some Paily stories. This is just me though so.. (End of rant/Paily for your thoughts “Anchor my Heart to Yours” edition here).


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elunica-calemi said: I see...but what would happen to agent fuckin' sexy & badass kickin' McCullers? Will she be reprimanded for neglecting the protocol and/or be called by Wayne? I feel like Paige could explode any second now, you know given her intensifying feelings towards Emily and the pressure of keeping up with her job whilst protecting the girl she's falling for. I hope Emily would be the one to give in to Paige. I'm realizing the need for stories that assert Paige as the one being wanted & girls giving into.

You know, this is exactly what the underlying conflict of the story is about, what it’s building up to. It’s about Paige choosing between love and duty, pretty much. Because her job is to protect others. She did it with Pam, and even then, the lines blurred a little because Paige is a nice person and I think Pam is too. She wants to be a good mother; it’s what she’s been doing all her life, supporting the people she loves. So without them in the house, she would easily just extend that love to whoever was around. Which is why she could get away with touching Marco’s cheek when no other agent could.

The thing is, with Emily, Paige wants to protect her but she also is conflicted between wanting to make her happy and being kind of in love with her since they met. And we will see how these things might conflict. This is a pivotal chapter because it is showing us all these things that we didn’t consciously think about, but were still present. Just under the surface. This chapter is also important (as is the next one) because they foreshadow what will happen in the second part of this whole story. What is it? I know, but no more spoilers. So start speculating away.

As for Emily going after Paige, I want that. I do. But this story is following canon as closely as possible while still being AU. In the sense that Paige was the one that pursued Emily. Even though she was closeted and full of self-hate and doubted herself every step of the way, she still went after the girl. She wanted Emily and pursued her. This is what I want to parallel here. The Paily story at its core. Where Emily and Paige meet and by knowing Emily, not just the image of Emily, Paige starts to want to grow and become a better person. The kind that can keep a girl like her.

Anchor My Heart To Yours (asks)

elunica-calemi replied to your post: Anchor My Heart To Yours (17/?)

even though she knew it was fake, as she’d seen ORANGE, she’d have to shoot? Really?

Well the thing is, Paige didn’t consciously know that it was fake. She took a gamble based on pretty much a gut feeling. Because the gun looked real, except for these two spots that were orange: The tip and the trigger. She only noticed it was fake when she held it, and realized that it was 1) not as heavy as it should have been for a gun that size and 2) had the orange bits. And that’s when she was like, fuck, I could have kind of killed someone if I hadn’t done done something else I wasn’t supposed to.

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Hahaha agreed. You can’t forget the Paily on the side when you have Agent McCullers being a total badass and taking some frat boys down. 

saii79 replied to your post: Anchor My Heart To Yours (17/?)
*HIGH FIVE* buddy :D

   high five forever

Anchor My Heart To Yours (17/?)

Chapter 17: Choices
Author’s Note: I’m a liar that lies because it took me forever to finish this chapter. I didn’t forget about it, I just scrapped most of it and then re-wrote it because it didn’t fit… right before I was about to post it… last week. So I hope the wait was worth it. 

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Darkness Grows (Mini Analysis)

So as not to spam you, in case you don’t read the fic, feels under the cut.

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overkill-max said: *rolls eyes* I doubt it. How many times have they said things similar to this before only to leave Paily fans kind of disappointed? Just resign yourself to another pool scene that’s “rife with imagery and symbolism.”

I actually think you might be a little over optimistic, thinking we’ll get a pool scene and symbolism. 

I’m expecting a scene lasting less than a minute and one hug (if we’re lucky which we very rarely are). 

lolz. You’re right, we might get Paige to come back from out of town long enough to hug Emily, love her from afar some more and you know go back to being her texting buddy whenever there are any lesbians within a 3 mile radius.

(While we get a steamy Ezria sex scene, a Haleb goodbye romp and promises of forever love and you know, typical Spoby angsty re-union bedroom scene… like always.)

Darkness Grows (9/?)



Chapter 9: The Fire
Rating: T
Author’s Note: I absolutely love this fic. And with preface, three people who read this, be ready to feel crushed by this chapter. Because, you know, angst.

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